Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in Nick's LiveJournal:

Thursday, January 15th, 2004
8:15 am	happy newyear i am still alive...the new year will bring a new nick....change is good....i see lots of new me's coming soon...i can't wait to meet them all :) Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
6:36 pm	reserved Ever feel stuck ? Can't move....No motivation....Well that's the state of mind I am in at the moment.. I need a lil push. I am Packing up for my trip out to LA.. I need a lil get away to clear my mind...rethink things out..CALI here i come......BACK ON THE ROAD AGAIN-jj Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
1:35 pm	thoughts I look into the window of my mind. Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind. I step out of the ordinary. I can feel my soul ascending. I'm on my way ... cant stop me now. And you can do the same. YEeeAAaa! What have you done today to make you feel proud? It's never to late to try. What have you done to day to make you feel proud? Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Monday, July 28th, 2003
3:59 pm	life with out a K I N G wow it's been awhile since i have been here. lots have changed. good and bad. josh and i are no longer together :( but we are still friends and i love him more then anything...GOT TIL IT"S GONE those words are so true. when you find a great thing hold on to it. i think i lost gold playing with trash. Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 10th, 2002
6:20 pm	MUAH hmmmm where do i start..well it's been a min since i've been here. works going great and so are things with josh. he's back in school now yay for him. i need to go back also. once i get off resv. my old buddy from midway airlines is going to work here at comair soon yay for him. he called me the other day to thank me for getting him a job interview..i got bitched out for that one :P but anyways i am off to rest i wont stay away that long this time MUAHHHHH Current Mood: accomplished (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 7th, 2002
12:11 am	is it a dream..... life is so short.....i am here in my X's room looking over a few things from the past..pictures from here and there. wow i did that lol. cant belive how.....well......out of all the people in the world..why him? why his plane? was it his turn ? makes you think....you'll be missed mark :( Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Friday, September 6th, 2002
10:03 pm	My thoughts are with you It seems as if it was only yesterday we met but it was years ago which are now gone and now so are you you'll be missed but not forgotten forgiveness I never gave you understanding I never did rebuilt is what I did to the broken heart you gave I only hope your in a much better place now I know I am I am in a place called love TRUE LOVE... Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Monday, September 2nd, 2002
1:12 am	TRUST what is it? People say they trust you BUT do they really???? We say we trust others BUT do we really??????????????? I think deep down inside we want to but there is always this lil small corner of doubt remember ..... fall in love... head over heels... what ever makes you happy.... if you get hurt later , at least you won't regret what u did have and the heart always heals and moves on Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 29th, 2002
1:55 am	Sweet Home Alabama....... home sweet home. they were right there is no place like home! from the moment i stepped off the plane like WHAT to the time i had my first taste of mama's food. being back at home here in ALABAMA is great. haven't been here in awhile, don't think i could ever live here again but it's always nice to come visit, things here never change. my Mom drove down for the weekend also she got in a few hours after me. with all that's going on in the world today. it's great to have a place to call home..a place to feel safe..a place to feel loved ,,,wanted and welcomed that grandma's house,,,,,,,, Current Mood: grateful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 27th, 2002
6:43 pm	Dude where's MY Keys ?????/ i had more ground training for my flight attendant job on Monday...after class i could not find my car keys. it sucked Ass i got up at 7 am to be at class around 830..in class ALLL day until around 5. at 515 i was so ready to go home but could not because of my keys ewww i was over it. i recalled having my car looked at by a Nissan dealer close by so i had a friend take me over to pick up an extra key of mine that they had from a few weeks back, i get there and they cant find my key :( so now i have no car keys no house key i am sleepy and just wanna go off......o well shit happens,,it all worked out...my land lady came over today and gave me a new set of house keys and the Nissan people found my extra car key but charged me $30 for looking at my car to tell me what was wrong with it ewww. OOPS I though that was free...guess not $30 to tell me what i already know is wrong with my car hmm thanks guys. anyway i am off wed,thu fri and sat ...cant wait to fly away for a few days. i am going down to Birmingham to see my family and to wash up all my dirty cloths...it's like college all over again taking dirty cloths home :P speaking of college I really need to start back..... Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 21st, 2002
8:14 pm	does what they think of you determine your worth? Here I am in your face Tellin truths and not your old lies Seems to me that you care And I know that you're runnin out of time See ya can't get away I'll be here forever and again Whisperin in your ear Do believe cause you know you cannot win Spent most your life pretending not to be The one you are but who you choose to see Learned to survive in your fictitious world Does what they think of you determine your worth? If special's what you feel when you're with them Taken away you feel 'less than' again That's right You gotta mean what you say You gotta say what you mean Tryin to please everyone Sacrifice your own needs Check in the mirror my friend No lies will be told then Pointin the finger again You can't blame nobody but you There's a feeling inside No you cannot change it right away Gotta make a try And with time it'll start to go away I'll be here when you need That one to sit and cry to Cause I'm the you you forgot The only one you know you cannot lie to Bitter you'll be if you don't change your ways When you hate you you hate everyone that day Unleash this scared child that you've grown into You cannot run for you can't hide from you Can't hide from you That's right Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Monday, August 19th, 2002
2:31 am	easy like sunday morning joshie and i went out to celbs this weekend....it was ok the Miami bois where all out..got to meet a new Miami boi WIL he was a lil cutie no K-I-N-G but cute. got to see IAN do his Japanese Bird dance :P long time no see. today i had a chance to sleep in with my joshie right next to me . it was great after waking up we just talked and farted and joked around for almost an hour before getting out of bed. i am in LOVE i wish everyone could feel what i am feeling right now. we'll not the sleepy part nite nite i am off to bed in kalamazooooo this is the first nite sleeping with out my baby all week ;( (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 16th, 2002
5:08 pm	how do you know when you really love someone? people they can be sweet they can be loving they can be caring it's best when they are all three at the same time saying i love you is so easy but to find love and to say it and mean it is hard how do you know when you really love someone....... when someone pisses you off so bad it makes you almost cry....when someone pissses you off so much that you dont want to look at them.......when someone pisssed you so bad that no words can come out.................. when your that pisssed and just one look in that persons eyes....past all the anger..all the hurt ..just that one look makes your wet tears dry....words like i love you come right out....... thats when you know you really love someone (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 14th, 2002
1:25 pm	inside of me i can't stop thinking of you..... the things we use to do.. the secretes we once shared i'll always find them there in my memories. but this heart ache isn't going anywhere in the public eye i act like i don't care but when there is no one watching me i am CRYING i will always have you inside of me even though your gone love still carries on love inside of me i keep a picture of you next to my bed at night and when i wake up scared i know i'll find you there watching over me when my world seems to crumble all around and foolish people try to bring me down,,,, i just think of your smiling face,,, and i am flying. i will always have you inside of me even though your gone love still carries on love inside of me you will always be inside of my heart ,,,,inside of me,,,, when my world seemed to crumble all around and foolish people try to bring me down. . i just think of your smiling face and i am flying.... i will always have you ..inside of me..even though your gone love still carries on love inside of me,,i will always have you inside of me even though your gone love still carries on . . i will always feel you ,,,you will always be inside of me i will always have you...inside of me..... Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Monday, August 12th, 2002
2:15 am	longday my long day has come to an end. it started out like i want all of my days to start " in bed next to my joshie" my work called letting me know that i had to be in at yadayada time .....so i only got to see my j for almost a half a day... we went and got him some new shoes since he cant wear sandals to work anymore awww poor baby. work was a drag...but i got to talk to a few people that i have not seen in awhile who were in my training class. i worked 3 flights today. indy and back then over to nashiville where i am now. no oscars for me tonite :( just a nice hotel room with room service.that K I N G size bed across the room is calling my name...nitenite (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 8th, 2002
8:41 pm	my new journal here goes my first entre to my live J . my joshie has one so i wanted one also. today is thur my day off and my day to relax after a very long wed. wed josh and i went to NYC my favorite city . wed also marked 5mo for us :) things are going great ....well thats that i am off to bed befor pipeline tonite jcrew1luv always (1 Comment |Comment on this)